Thinking too much

i was in bed, wanting to go to sleep, but my brain won't turn off. i am thinking too much i guess. i have been going through all the kids and wondering if they are okay, and happy. i want them to be happy with whatever they are doing at the moment they are doing it. i don't want them to think that life is a chore. i want them to be happy living life. i am afraid i taught them that life is a chore, because i thought that way for so long. now i realize, it is a chance to live, grow, and learn. learning how to get back to our heavenly father, learning how to live life to its fullest in a crazy mixed up world that tries to teach that the only way to be happy is to play. i want them to love all people for who they are, and realize they are learning too. i love these 11 almost 12 kids with all my heart. i want them to be happy.